Father's Day

To me the word "Father" means someone whom is a protector, a provider and a person whom gives hugs and gives you the feeling that you are truly loved and are safe and protected. Well I was raised by my Mom and my Dad was not present. He was an alcoholic and was not in my home after I was five years old. Honestly I do not remember his face as a child. However he did come in to my life after I was grown at the age of 21 yrs. old. My Mom always told me stories about him and they were not good ones. However I wanted to think maybe he did think of his 4 children sometimes. I grew up being fearful of him. I had my first daughter and she was a baby. I got a call from my Dad and he was in the area and wanted to see me. Well, I said ok and he arrived near my home, standing beside a store building at near daylight waiting for me to acknowlege his presence. Well, he was wearing a long coat and I didn't actually recognize him, as I didn.t know him. He came to my home and believe it or not, this guy was very nice to us and he was very handsome, as I could see he had a lot of features like me. He was a true gentleman and a big talker. I could see that I had inherited his laugh and his long skinny fingers lol. He held his granddaughter very sweetly. But he never mentioned his lack of his presence in our home. I so wanted to ask him. Before he left I did. I said "Did you ever think of us children all those years? He hesitated and got quiet and then said , You know I did.......Well at least he said that much. As time went on we shared small amounts of time together. He turned out to be a character. My family listened to his wild stories and his big mouth, laughing with him and listening to his foul mouth. However my Mom never had anything to do with him, having raised her children on her own/ As he got older he was in a nursing home and at the end he was very sick and the hospital called to tell me he was asking for me. I did not get to him before he passed away. I was sad but not as close as I should have been and wish I could have been there for him though he was not there for us. Today fathers all over the world are honoored on father's day and are deservant. However there are a lot of dead-beat dads too. Little do they know a little child is hurting when the dad is not present. Not having the protection of a Dad has been very hard for me as I looked at life a little different. Luckily my husband has been a wonderful protectant for our children/ He is what a Dad should be.......for you who have your dads be glad and praise them. They are worth their weight in gold-your knight in shining armour. ....Happy Father's Day to all the dads all over and though I didn't really know my dad I knew he was out there somewhere and that I did have an identity....and got to know him a little...give your Dad a big hug and a kiss as he needs love from you too....Ok I must get my day started ...Have a nice one..May God Bless each and everyone of you.Adventerous Irene