I AM NOT TOO CRAZEE!!!!!!

Hello there my readers-sorry I have been gone so long. I am presently in New York City. Do y'all believe this? Well it is true and I can hardly believe it myself. I met a good friend whom invited me here. He is an outstanding guy who treats me with all respect and is a lot of fun. He is proud to take me whereever he goes and I have also made a few good friends. I attended a conference at the Desmond Hotel in Troy N.Y....also a banquet at the American Legion Post in Rennselaer. We had a great time and took several pics. My friend is a good man who is in the Army and while I was fast asleep in my bed he was protecting my country for my family and me. He has paid a price to keep our country safe. I thank him for that. He is caring and thoughtful and we enjoy cooking, traveling, just being together talking, and we like some of the same things, as playing scrabble on line and Wheel of Fortune and Jeopardy. Occasionally he has a beer at the posts, but he is very nice and very sweet to me and he knows when to stop. However, I like him serenading me at the jukebox when he is a lil tipsy. I have fun watching others have fun because I remain a non-drinker and have an H/2/O...on the rocks. I drive him home to get a lil feel of the wheel since his Jeep is a stick shift and I am learning to drive it. I realize I have baffled a lot of family and friends. Believe me! I did not do this to hurt any of them. I just felt it was time for me to get away....and this just happened to two people whom felt the same way about their life. Paul says the same things I do about this relationship-it was the fact that we clicked-somehow..Maybe we were both going thru something at that time. Anyway I miss my family and they miss me too. I pray for all of us to accept this, as I have not been depressed a single day up here. Paul goes with me to my counselor, whom I thought I could talk to thru all of this. We talk about things that involve us, and I sometimes do feel guilty for leaving without any notice, and not kissing my son/grandson. I have raised him good and he knows I love him dearly. I hope he will forgive me. I hope to be with him sometime soon though he is mad at me/I understand why . I have gained a handsome grandson recently, and Gina and I talk everyday . Wish I could have been there for his birth, but the lil rascal came early. He is so precious and I can't wait to hold him. Paul has talked to my daughters, except for Becky. He has not talked to David. I know David is mad at me and I understand why, but he knows I love him and Crystal and Robin and all the grandchildren. I am at the College that Paul attends today and I am on his laptop while he studies. Well, when we leave, I think Paul is taking me to the maul...he is always amazing me with new places to go and places to eat. When we cook, I try his food and then he tries mine.....sometimes we do not always agree, but thAT IS OK. Have I bored you? Hope you will understand what is going on and will forgive me for leaving Pikeville, which was a very strange thing to do, I know. But let this be a lesson learned, anything is possible in this life. Paul and I are good friends and we take this day by day. I do know he cares for me and before this, I never got a hug or kiss or a thank you....I was very lonely at home and tried to make things better with me and Tommy..I am so sorry this happened but it was meant to be, and Paul is not responsible for me leaving. He was only wanting to have me with him and to show me someone cares. Through all of this, I ask for strength and forgiveness. I will write again soon. Please take care all. Remember to keep Jesus in your heart. I keep him near me every moment.